To Jon & Alv

Hey guys. If you ever get to see this.. it's everything i wouldn't tell you in your face. :P



To Jon:






I guess i never really told you this but you're one of those people that i look up to.
It's funny how we both came from the same tadika, yet i feel like i have a lot to learn from you.

You're the know-what-to-do guy given in any sort of difficult situation or position. It's like you just know what to do when everyone's falling apart.

Coming from the same pre-school, of the very same age, your maturity level outweighs mine.
You give damn good advices, sometimes i wonder if you're my age. :/

If i were to use one word to describe you, it will be God-sent. Oh man, this is gonna make your head blow. I can just imagine you doing your "DUH" face now together with your one and only act cool pose. :p

The reason for God-sent is coz' you brought me to church, exposed me to Sheep United.
I remember the first day i was at that church, you spent the entire service explaining everything, introducing almost anyone you know to me.
For a starter in that community, everything feels awkward. I didn't know anyone, and at times, it seems difficult to connect with others but you helped me with it.
For some time, i was shy and quiet. The only way i feel that i could connect and be my normal self was when all of us disturbed you.

Slowly, i learn to connect with others without having to do it through you. Felt like you guided me a lot in those days when i first joined the church.

So if it wasn't for you, i wouldn't have known all the awesome people in cell, of which have the utmost sincerity and truly caring.


I know how sometimes, maybe it does suck being mocked one after another by all of us, being the dart board, being the clown.

If we ever went overboard, i'm sorry.

The way i see it, you sacrificed by being the clown just to see us get unison to disturb you.


By disturbing you, all of us had a great time laughing, and became closer than before.




Being a hero isn't easy, but you pulled it well. :)


I miss disturbing you. So is the whole cell.
There isn't another member in the cell that we can disturb to such extent but you. :(

Bet you'd go.. "AIYAHH" when you see that. :P




Stupid Jon, this is why i cannot stop disturbing you. :P







Though we're not the closest friend that each other has, but at so many points, when i least expect, you showed concern. That, i'm actually touched. :p


Do you think we'll ever be like the way we are now, 4 years later?
Watching you leave just now made me look into the next 4-5 years in the future.

We'd be 24. Working. And given another 3 or 4 years from then, we'd probably be starting our own family or things like that.

Do you think we'll be too old to mock or hit each other?



Nevertheless, I thank Lord for your existence in my life.





FOURTEEN YEARS ACQUAINTANCE JON :P







And one year buddies :)








To Alv:








You're like my best guy friend this whole year. You took such great care of me, and supported amy impulsive ideas though you don't think it's right sometimes. I owed you a lot, in so many things though you keep telling me that i don't.


We hopped from one phase to another, didn't we? The first time i know you, we were purely retarded, purely innocent in our friendship. As time passed, we've known each other so well, and so much has happened that it changed our friendship. Even so, i had my best moments with you though we fight a lot.


I miss those times we sat and talked about just any shyts. We would just suddenly get into a debate on any sort of topics. And remember those insane times we went cyber at 3 or 4 in the morning? Your eyes were red, and you still didn't wanna admit you're dead tired.


You accompanied me in a lot of my silly missions which were totally unreasonable and you tried to talk me out of it but you give in to my stubbornness in the end . You were like a brother, like a guardian, and definitely like a best friend.




You gave me my 19th birthday.

I was deeply touched with the cake coz' no one's ever gotten me a secret recipe cake with my name written on it. :/ It felt like a complete birthday cake. :)




You planned everything according to the little things that i randomly mentioned over time just to give me a great birthday.

Thanks.


I've said a hundred thanks, but i don't think it's ever enough. You know what you gave me and all, how your existence pulled me through my lowest point, and i know it well too. I know it so well that i'm so grateful for how everything fell into place, how we ended up becoming such good friends. Though if you were to start all over again, you might have chosen another path.


I know i've said a lot of hurtful stuff, and at one point, i really didn't want us to be involved in each other's life. I know i've said i regret for how everything started and all. But all these time of us being almost complete strangers, got me thinking a lot. Truthfully, i don't anymore.

In fact, i miss those times we hang out. As tiring as how we threw our emotions at each other can get, still, there were more happy moments that outweighed the bad ones.

If i could turn back time, i'll try to make it right, i'll try not to frustrate you with that problem you didn't wanna hear. I'm sorry that almost everything was my fault. And i'm especially sorry if i took you for granted. I have a tendency to only start appreciating when i lose something, while letting regrets eat me up.


I thought it was for the best that we remained how we are now but i died a little inside watching us being mere acquaintance just now. Just wanting to say a proper goodbye seemed so difficult.
I can't tell you how badly i wanted us to talk for the last time there, and for our last goodbye. But i couldn't bring myself to. I guess both our egos got in the way huh?


Watching you & Jon getting almost out from my sight, i knew that if i don't say it now, i won't get to anymore. But all i managed to give by letting the bit of my ego down, was a wave goodbye from far which you saw. Bit lame huh? I was actually waiting and hoping you'd look at my direction before you went in. And i'm glad you did coz at least we waved goodbye. :/





Awesome picture huh?






One of the best times i had with you and the guys.




For once, it almost got me teared up watching you walk away, knowing that we'd probably live out what we said that night at Little Bally. Like how we said we'd probably won't know each other anymore after 4 years, how we wouldn't even know where we would be in this world, and how if we were to meet on the street someday.

I kept saying,
"we'll call each other 4 years from now and see what we're doing with our lives".


Remember?


Do you think we're ever gonna do that, 4 years from now?








I like it when you smile like that.

It makes me happy when you're being retardedly hyper.
It cheers up everyone around. So..


Smile more man. :)






To you both:







I want you guys to know how each one of you has been so significant and special to me.


How both of you has changed my life in so many ways, for the better.

And how contented i am for the times with you guys.


Thanks again and take care. May God be with you in everything you do.









Bye Alv, bye Jon.




See you guys someday, years from now.