Pretending to be a doctor?!

This guy in the picture is one of my good friend. Can be said as my best guy friend among all the guys i know. Haha...he is crappy and annoying(mwahaha)...but treats me well. And people thinks he is a gay!

His ambition is to become a doctor.(I don't think that is possible ;p) Quite pathetic actually. Haha...he is a good friend of my best buddy too. So that makes 3 of us great buddies. His one and only profession is Maths i guess...

I've known him for a couple of years already..he is friggin skinny and.......ahem...sissy. XP Just kidding. But many had claimed so...
Well..his name is Allan a.k.a 'the rich brat'...sort of... =/

Hail to the Lord Of Glue!!

Haha....there in the picture, is the "Lord of Glue".... Just look at the way she smile, wow...genuinely gluey... =X

She is my best buddy, as i mentioned earlier. The name is Marilyn a.k.a Tomato. Could hardly see her red face here as this was taken in a dimly lit room....
She looks harmless doesn't she? Haha...its OTHERWISE behind her..... when she raises her 'hard-cold-merciless-pinches', George Bush had rather wished he wasn't born.... XP (i'll be killed for this, but i'm still risking my life writing this)

Anyway....no matter how merciless those pinches are....she will always remain as my best buddy. Haha....

I felt really depressed and upset today. I'm trying hard protecting it.....holding on to it.....struggling for it.... But they are taking it away from me, slowly. I know I'm not what they want..but i'm struggling to be what they want just for the sake of keeping it by my side.. I've never tried so hard before. And every trial i would request for a reward in the end. But now, i have no wish for anything. All i want is to keep it along with me. I'm still trying...and still disappointing them and it.... I'm placing my life into this.....don't they see? I've changed every single way i could....haven't they realized?
Should i be alive? I really don't know. I'm worth nothing to them.... I'm worth nothing to myself. Pointless. I wish i could just end my life like that... If only it would not hurt so much and against my religion, i really wish i could.
I could tell that it was trying not to hurt me...as i know, it too hasn't been any better. Somehow i just get the meaning. Thus, i am hurt. A lot.
It is my last hope and faith... Losing it....i will lose everything, including the reason that i lived for. As now, and forever, the fear of letting it go, is stained in my soul....permanently.

Few months ago, while i was friendsterizing, i noticed a bulletin entitled "a girl died while having sex". Yeah...it was dumb to read bulletins but somehow...curiousity was in my soul. So i clicked it and read. There was nothing interesting at all. Reaching to the end, there was this something that seriously grabbed my attention. It stated there, "if you dun repost this bulletin, a faceless ghost will come into ur dream and kill you". I was like....WTH??!!

I know it was ridiculous... but then i did it...i repost that damn thing. Thinking back now, i can't believe i was that dumb....i bet a 10 year old kid would have ignored it instead. I ain't scared of dieing...but i would rather die in the hands of my best pal...not in some made-in-Malaysian-retards imaginary arseless faceless ghost...what a joke..

And for that...it took a way my first time of posting a bulletin. Just like that, fallen to a retard joke.

Obviously, i started this today. Witnessing how others actually express their feelings into these, has tempted me to do the same. Just like the rest...i am made up of problems too. I don't speak nor write excellent English... But there's a need for me to let it all out here when i find it difficult to confront them towards my buddies or anyone else..

As for the first day, course i won't be flooding the first post with my depression.

Is this the part where i should introduce myself? Right.... My name is Andrea... i was born on 20th January 1992...so that makes me... 15 this year. Just a middle school student living in a cat city, Kuching, in the state of "no place like other's", Sarawak, where many still assume that we live on trees.. Are the tourists here for the same reason? Just to see us living on trees? Well we don't live on trees of course.

My school, just simply an old building by the name of, 'St. Teresa'. I like the name. I like the building. But i certainly do not like the people working in it. You-know-who-i-mean la hor? there's one thing i enjoyed the most there...that is hanging out with friends. I have great friends and a coming-to-3-year-old best friend. Not that she is three(i hope she is one! then i won't had to suffer under her pinches >=D), but i have known her for almost 3 years.

To make her proud(even for those pinches), i'll post her name here = Marilyn (so-called 'Tomato' in school for her friggin red cheek) ;p

That ends my introduction. My family? No interest to elaborate about it. Basically, this is all crap. But that's what life's about. ^^